Women's Bodies Women's Choices

May 17, 2019

 

 

 

In Light of the Law being passed against abortion...

 

I feel called to share my own story...

 

 

How I serve the world from my own choices and these choices have supported 1000’s of women all around the earth

 

 

Your Body 

Your Choice 

 

 

 

 

 

Day 23 of my cycle 

Yet I knew I wasn’t going to bleed 

I know my body 

I know her rhythms and ways

Not this month 

I wasn’t getting my sacred blood 

 

I sit in the bathroom and take the test 

Within a second the lines appear

I am pregnant 

 

This was a shock 

And not a shock 

 

I knew i wasn’t going to bleed 

Which only meant I was pregnant 

My cycles are rhythmic

cyclical with nature 

 

Then panic 

Deep sadness 

My relationship wasn’t in a place of stability 

 

This life was created from love 

But growing in fear 

 

 

But I want to be a mother 

I am a mother 

 

I don’t want to do this alone 

I have done so many things alone 

 

Not this 

I can’t 

I won’t 

 

The love remains 

I am out of integrity 

This isn’t what I wanted 

To create and carry life in fear 

 

 

My heart is heavy 

The fear is unbearable 

 

The pain

The anxiety 

 

I feel this life within me begin to grow 

 

I sat with my Womb everyday 

For many many many days 

For many many weeks 

Crying 

Listening 

Feeling 

 

I am sorry 

I am sorry 

I am sorry 

 

You don’t deserve this beginning 

You deserve to be grown in love 

 

So we connected and I said....

 

If you don’t feel safe to be here 

It is ok for your to go 

 

I love you 

 

I had read about conscious conception and had worked with many clients on this journey 

 

So I sat with my womb and the life beginning to grow inside of her as I began to understand that I could ask to consciously un-conceive this life... if the spirit of the life was to also decide this was an option for it too

 

The pain began 

The physical pain 

 

What is happening....

It’s so so intense 

 

And then the blood 

The blood came 

 

The life was leaving me 

The spirit heard my tears and felt my pain 

 

For days and days I passed the life 

that was growing inside of me 

 

Deep trance voids I journeyed 

Waves of pain and ecstasy travelled 

through me 

 

Feeling the edge of both pain and bliss simultaneously 

 

The sensations through my 

Legs

Womb 

Back

Heart

 

Ripples of emotions I never knew existed 

 

I was in these moments giving birth to 

Death 

 

I was in these moments giving birth to 

Myself 

 

A new day began 

The blood and life had left me 

 

I was alone again 

But not the same 

Never the same 

 

There is a burning fire in the place you 

once lived 

 

The awakening of Shakti 

The rise of the inner Warrior 

My voice has opened 

 

In your leaving 

I found myself 

 

 

Thank you 

 

I make Art from your teachings 

And serve from this Power you Gave Me 

 

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